Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Baby, Baby


Ahhhhhhhh.....


We made it through the year.

We have been without you for a whole year, but you are still just as real in our hearts. Our love for you has not faded, has not been forgotten. Although I have missed your new baby smell, and the classic first birthday cake pictures ... you somehow have this imprint on my soul that I am confident will never leave me. So much of you has made me who I am, and your life continues to make me into who I am to be. I have learned so much by having you on the earth for a blink of an eye, and have grown so much by having to learn to let you go, and especially by reaching out to my Savior -- the One who holds you now -- the One that has held me this year, and the One that will hold us together someday. Actually, I know you're the lucky one. I bet you're having a celebration of a lifetime today.....and every day. I miss you so much!

Trying to be patient.....

-Mommy

9 comments:

melanie said...

little guy,
we are fixing our eyes on what is unseen and in the glory of eternity with Him and you.

jenni said...

Jesus can come back anyday now!!!! This is beautiful Amie! Know that I love you and that we've been praying for you guys.

Heth said...

I have no words.

Chris @ Come to the Table said...

This is so amazing and beautiful! "the One who holds you now, the One that has held me this year, and the One that will hold us together someday" Your words not only express the deep places of your own heart, but also minister in ways that I cannot put into words. As I said to you on Wednesday, his little life has touched so many. And I say to you today sweet one, your life will continue to touch and minister to so many.

The posts you have written about Andy need to put into a book and shared with others, and it should be titled so eloquently "Andy".

Brenda said...

Wow Aim....You have the strenght of Daniel...God bless you!

chris said...

How beautiful. When I read this I realize that the many, many, many prayers for you and your family are being answered. Thank you for posting so eleoquently.

Wendi @ Every Day Miracles said...

This gave me chills! You articulaed the cries of a griving mommy's heart so well.
Oh how I wish no one would have to feel this pain. But I know that on this side of heaven we will have to rely on God's arms of comfort to get us through.
Truly lovely and heartfelt.
{hugs}

Angela said...

Thanks for sharing your beautiful words and oh-so-private feelings. I love you, Amie. Hugs are here anytime.

Stacy said...

Wow... you MUST be a strong woman! I don't know what "religion" you are, but I truly believe that you will be able to raise your son in the next life. He was too pure to be in this crazy world and he was taken to be with our Father in Heaven again!

It sounds like you've had a trying year, but with such hardships to endure come great joys and a testimony of the love and compassion that our Savior has for each one of us!

I can tell that you are a woman of faith and feeling and that you radiate love for those around you. :o)

I will include you in my prayers for continued strength, that only He can give us!