Friday, December 12, 2008

Held

I was talking to my sister last week and she was wondering how I look so strong on the outside, because inside it must be killing me. I love her. And as I was driving home, I was praying for the chance to explain it the best way I could - and the song "Held" came on. I, for the first time, started really listening to the words. Then came the lightbulb in my head. Thank you, Lord. Instantly answered prayer - why can't they all be this easy? "We survive."

And his birthday next week........so held. "We will survive."

I unpacked a Christmas box filled with ornaments, and found a couple "baby's first Christmas" ornaments ready to be hung on the tree. I had packed it last year in January while Andy was still alive. And I dug a little more and found two little onesies 3-6 month size. "And to know that the promise was when everything fell we'd be held."

Go Here and listen if you have a minute today.

11 comments:

Tina said...

oh Amie... I think of you so much.

I love you.

ann said...

I'll always think of you when I hear that song, Amie. I'm praying for you.

Heth said...

I think of you often Amie.

David said...

I can't begin to understand what you're going through. Honestly, I feel a little inadequate to even comment. But I'm commenting anyway because I want you to know that prayers are going up. God bless.

melanie said...

i love you.

Kim said...

Came here through Beth's website. I don't know you, but praying for you............may the Lord wrap his arms around you and your family.

Lorie said...

I have no words but you are in my thoughts and prayers for comfort and to feel God's amazing love.

MommyCorbie said...

I love you too! Thanks for helping me see it through your eyes. Praying that these next couple weeks you feel the love around you. So many are thinking of and praying for you and Harry. The angel atop my Christmas tree reminds me what a great Heaven Andy is in right now. You are all being "Held" in the same arms!

Angela said...

I'm praying, too, Amie. I was thinking about you and wondering if you were coming out on Saturday.

Sometimes that's all we know...that we are held. We will survive. I know you are held in the strongest arms you could imagine. I love you so much.

chris said...

I'm writing a week later from your post. Andy's birthday. Know that many people are holding you up in prayer today. Your family is so precious to many of us. Let the tears flow freely and know that you are held by the same Jesus that holds Andy.

Wendi @ Every Day Miracles said...

Aimie,
I found your blog through Sarah's.
As I read this post I couldn't keep the tears away. We just celebrated a similar emotional milestone - even six years out, it is hard and wonderful to feel God's arms holding us.
Praying for you.
~Wendi